In session tonight: Serious Drinking.

[hirez]

Arse. This week (Yes, I know it's only Tuesday. I think it started on Saturday) is daemon week.

It's like reading week, (Or Reading week) only instead of avoiding pre-exam terror by the application of alcohol (or rubbish rock bands ditto), the voice in the back of my head is telling me that I'm useless. A bit bleedin' previous of it, frankly.

It hasn't happened for ages, and I begin to wonder if it's not the result of two beery weekends in succession.

See, those of you with long memories will recall that I was (still am) partial to a few scoops. However, hangovers that are mostly sheer terror are no fun at all, so modulo Whitby|Christmas|holidays, I knocked the stuff on the head.

Meanwhile... I'd noticed that some post-beer mornings weren't that bad. Captain Paranoia was nowhere to be found. WhatTheHack and VP, for instance. I can only guess that away from the malarkey of 'real life' Capt. Paranoia hadn't got a chance.

So last weekend I thought I'd test it. Look, ma! No terror! Well, until yesterday, anyway. Even then not terror so much as vague unease, and that's a whole lot better than what had gone before.

As to causes for this partial fix, I do not know. I vaguely suspect a combination of minor brain debugging and an amount of moderately healthy exercise. And writing this.

Comments

[malcygoff.livejournal.com]

I vaguely suspect a combination of minor brain debugging and an amount of moderately healthy exercise

errr, isn't openly extolling the virtues of excerise heresy here in teh interwebs?

[hirez.livejournal.com]

No, that was a Coventry club night.

[miss-soap.livejournal.com]

I get heightened anxiety with hangover too. Good, eh?

[hirez.livejournal.com]

Oh, yes. It's just so much fun trying to be polite when you want to GO HOME NOW AND HIDE.

Is yours getting better or having a bit of a plateau?

[miss-soap.livejournal.com]

I've realised recently that it's not actually getting better at all. Understanding where it comes from doesn't magically make it go away, alas. Nor does having the tools to cope with it. I just want it to STOP.

[hirez.livejournal.com]

Shit. I'm distinctly under-joyed to hear that.

(And I'm likely being annoying with my 'mending your head is easy i did it right away' jabber.)

[spride.livejournal.com]

What would you think of the suggestion that the hangover is exacerbating a tendency to panic disorder? I noticed my feelings and symptoms were always worse in work weeks, and disappeared away from any work context (work at the time was insanely stressful for multiple reasons). I got a lot of good out of Cognitive Behavioral Therapy (fnarr fnarr acronym all right shut up).

[hirez.livejournal.com]

I don't know that I'd have gone as far as calling a good dose of The Fear a 'disorder'...

Hm. Interesting. Further thought required.

[godgirl.livejournal.com]

its a good thing i've given the stuff up as well then!

[dfable.livejournal.com]

Since you can't fight that voice, try tricking it. Dress up in someone else's clothes and hope it doesn't recognize you. If that doesn't work, agree with it, but secretly hold out hope that it may be wrong. works for me.

[hirez.livejournal.com]

You know that's a license for a wardrobe crisis... :D