Viable Panic-attack

[hirez]

I think I could do with a couple of people giving my subconscious a shake and telling it everything will be fine...

Edit: Much thanks to s0b for entirely timely advice. Forward in all directions, and getting small with it. Bosh!

Comments

[d-floorlandmine.livejournal.com]

How shaken do you want it to be?

[hirez.livejournal.com]

All the bits rattled into place. Entirely like mental tetris.

[thunderbox.livejournal.com]

You want us to lie to you?

[hirez.livejournal.com]

:p

'Everything' in this case is a slightly limited concept involving going to furrin parts for the purposes of kickstarting a backfiring alternative career. (For Rupertian values of 'career' obv.)

[hirez.livejournal.com]

Works for me, though I'd rather it did mine.

(Which it has.)

[bluekieran.livejournal.com]

A relaxing basket of kittens is in the post to you.

[aviatrix18.livejournal.com]

It will be fine, trust me. I went and I survived it. No one hated me. I'm driving Saab number 3 - a '99 93 woth 135K on it. What's yours?

[hirez.livejournal.com]

I must admit I'm really looking forward to it. I'm going to be well out of my depth with the SF tribe (I'm entirely clueless as to the customs and observances of fandom. It's going to be very interesting) but poking the writing bits of my head with a stick is just going to be fun. If hard work.

It's a classic 900 turbo from 1989. It's done 186k, but is suffering from terminal tin-worm. I'm kind of glad now I never managed to sell its predecessor, since I'll likely have to press that one (a similarly aged 9000 with a lot less miles) back into service.

[countb.livejournal.com]

I now tell myself I'm being daft, and like previous ones nothing bad will happen.

Music helps too.

[mr-tom.livejournal.com]

Looking at the cake is like looking at the future, until you've tasted it what do you really know?

I don't think he meant Cake in the Morrisian sense, but.

[redcountess]

You'll be fine :-)

[hirez.livejournal.com]

No worries. :)

[goth-twiglet.livejournal.com]

Things *can* only get better?

[jarkman.livejournal.com]

It'll be Fiiiiine. And if it isn't, it'll be a funny story. But it's hard to see a way in which it can really go so wrong as to matter.

Here, take a look at this lot:
http://images.google.co.uk/images?q=%22keep%20calm%20and%20carry%20on%22&ie=utf-8&oe=utf-8&sa=N&tab=wi

Like the tags say...

[cutietrol.livejournal.com]

hidden disasters inside - landslide in my mind. with added mud....

[godgirl.livejournal.com]

something in the air?

have felt rubbish all day, and it's friday.

possibly because this means i'm working the next two days. which is the antithesis of reality where people take the weekend off.

was planning on moving house, y'see.

but thats been put off til next wednesday, and now i realise that

1. im not ready - ie packed etc

2. it's monumentally stressful to go through things as i associate them too strongly with events - possessions are like family - excluding some, or forgetting who others were/are is difficult. and time and distance makes the memories blurry but doesn't stop it always feeling like i missed a boat somewhere back there that was taking me to the RIGHT island, not this rocky one.

3. the inevitable confrontation that will occur at some point late next week when i have to juxtapose my embarkation with some kind of good humour and not get emotionally agressive as to my rationale for secrecy.

4. leaving the place i've actually lived the longest ever for in my entire life. and realising even this i never treated as home. and realising im running out of time to find somewhere that i will.

not the response you wanted, but then again i think i'm having a loose screws moment... on 12" remix, repeatedly. since about 1pm.

Re: hidden disasters inside - landslide in my mind. with added mud....

[hirez.livejournal.com]

Don't worry - You're Allowed.

Packing's horrible. The last time we paid Men to come and help, and they were very useful since they'd no emotional attachment to anything. Just pile all the boxes in the van and stand about while I filled more, which didn't give me time to dwell on the box-contents.

Re: hidden disasters inside - landslide in my mind. with added mud....

[godgirl.livejournal.com]

...i would if i could and i didnt have to siphon out from amongst everything that which is to stay (his) and that which is to move (mine)....

its like untangling 5000 metres of grey dyed lace....

there is no end, yet so many.

[garunya.livejournal.com]

All the anxiety should disappear as soon as all the arrangements (transport, accommodation, payments) have been made - that's how it works for me, anyway.

Of course, the anxiety will re-emerge about a week before the actual event, but at least it's a different sort of anxiety by that point ;)

[hirez.livejournal.com]

Sir has hit the metallic wood-fixing device firmly upon its upper striking surface.

[eljaydaly.livejournal.com]

Stop worrying and just get your ass over here!

It will All Be Good.

[girfan.livejournal.com]

I did try my best to calm you last night.
You will be fine. :)

[glitchdrei.livejournal.com]

I am shaking your subconscious.

With my fist.

:D